（一言ジャーナリング風味チャレンジ0--）2019.11.08 軽量

何とか１週間を乗り切る（乗り切れてない）。仕事は無理やり切り上げて薬を飲んで休む。休む。今日こそ休みます。
と力を入れると休めないと言うのもよくある話。理想の自分とのギャップに悩んだり、普段なら気に留めないことにイライラしたり。
あと、ずっとやろうと思っていたのにできていない事に自己嫌悪になったり。noteでいえば完結させると言ってた物語が、実はほんの２セット分だけ空いていて止まっている。たった一人の人物のイメージができないだけの理由で。
そう言う時に歯を食いしばってきた。でも、違うことが必要なんだと思う。それは他の人から見たら馬鹿みたいに思われるような、自分の時間を持つとかだらだらするとか、夜遅くても刺身を食べるとか、そんな他愛のない事。
でも、少なくとも今日の自分はそれを選ぶ。明日以降のために。
Photo:夕夜食。あじのたたきを大根妻ごと、スープ（昨日までの具に水菜豆腐追加）、豆腐納豆。夜の炭水化物抜きは無理なくてきている。あと食べたい時は夜でも玄米蕎麦ブランパンくらいはOKしてる

I managed to get through a week (I didn't get through). Forcibly round up work, take medicine and rest. rest. Today is the day off.
It is a common story to say that you cannot rest if you put effort into it. I'm worried about the gap with my ideal, and I'm frustrated that I usually don't care.
Also, I had been trying to do it for a long time, but I was disgusted by things I couldn't do. The story that was said to be completed in terms of note is actually only two sets free. Just because you can't imagine a single person.
When I said that, I was clenching my teeth. But I think you need something different. It seems like a fool when you see it from other people. It ’s like having your own time, lazy, eating sashimi even late at night.
But at least today I choose it. For tomorrow and later.
Photo: Evening meal. Served with radish and radish wife, soup (added mizuna tofu in the ingredients until yesterday), tofu natto. It's no wonder that you don't have carbohydrates at night. And when you want to eat, brown rice soba bran bread is OK even at night