230219 リロードする事

リロード
仕事を終えると
フルロード
した感じが有って
次の仕事までに
チャージが要るんです

正にリロード
何か給油的な
満たされる感じ
が要ります

何で満たすかは
色々と有りますが
お蕎麦とか
食べるのもイイし
眠るのも立派に
チャージされます

加齢なのか
仕事が大変なのか
仕事柄なのか
リロードに
バリューが
要求サれ出していて
時間や質が一層
要るようにナってます

贅沢にナったのかなぁ
そんな風にも感じます

今まで
砂糖を知らなかった人は
砂糖を知ったら
多分
砂糖の無い生活に
戻れないだろう事が
想像デキます様に

僕の精神は
段々と馴化して
その程度のリロードでは
満足しないぜ！
みたいな感じなのかしら

贅沢は
憶えると言うより
知識的な部分が有るから
なかなか前には
戻りにくいデスよね
自分で解ってる事と
実態の乖離が
悩ましいんだよなぁ

reload

When you finish your work
I feel like I'm fully loaded.
I need to recharge before the next job.

It's really reloading.
I need some kind of refueling, some kind of filling up.
There are many ways to fill up.
Eating buckwheat noodles is good.
Sleeping is also a great way to refuel.

Is it aging?
Is it because of hard work?
Is it because of my job?
Reloading requires more value
time and quality.

I wonder if I've become extravagant.
I feel that way.

If you've never heard of sugar before
If you've never known sugar before
I don't think I can go back to a life without sugar.
as you can imagine.

My mind is getting used to it.
I'm not satisfied with that kind of reloading!
Or something like that.

Luxury is
It's not so much a matter of remembering
It's more of a knowledge thing.
It's hard to go back to the past, isn't it?

The gap between what you know and what you really are
The gap between what I know and what is actually happening is what bothers me.