『空の飛び方』

My ability and position don't match.

My boss expects from me.
There is too much expectation.
But I don't have the confidence to live up to that expectation.

I feel pressured.
"You have a good sense"
"You'll grow even more,"
Whenever I hear these words, I feel like throwing up.
I'm happy to be expected.Thank goodness.
But people have no idea how stupid and clumsy I am.

Don't look forward to it any more.
I guess people are saying "I'm looking forward to it" to me for good, but that's just a burden for me.

Is there any happiness beyond the many negative emotions of being tired, painful, and harsh?
I don't know.
If you think that this kind of thing will last forever in your future life, it's the limit.

If I were a marine creature, I wouldn't have to work.
I managed to make ends meet by catching and eating prey.
But if I can eat it, it's over.
But I have a way to make it look bigger so I can't eat it.

If I could fly, I would have chosen to be a deliveryman.
That may be painful, but it's a different story if you can fly.

How can I keep breathing in the sea?You don't have to breathe.
How can I fly?

I look up at the sky.
where a flock of kite crossed.
Seeing that made me even more envious.
I confides my worries to kite.
I know you can't hear me, and I know you can't communicate.

Kite passing by.
I cried out to Kite, who seemed to be out of sight.
The cries echoed and bounced from the nearby mountains.
This is very embarrassing.
But it didn't matter.
Shouting unrealistic wishes doesn't make them come true.
It ends with people laughing at me.

Maybe there was something I could have done a little more.
This profession has almost no days off and almost collapses from exhaustion.
You don't have to force yourself to continue, but I'm sure it's just that I lack perseverance.

I wish something motivated me more.
My only motivation is friends I meet occasionally.

I want to play soon.I want to see my friend soon.
Actually, I want to get out of work and go play.
But there's no way I can do that. Of course.

You don't have to look forward to it
Be more considerate of me?