230212 適材適所とbe野生種

約束に向かって
懸命にヤる

僕ぁ
ヤれるのは
普通だと想ってました

でも
懸命にヤる
が
デキない人ってのも
居るんだ
と知って
自分の不明を恥じたのです

一番の驚きは
研究の欠損です

ジリジリと研究するって
或る意味の凝り性の
発露だと想ってました
そして
その凝り性は
みんな持ってる
そう思い込んでいました

ヤる気にナらない仕事
やはり有りますよね

その仕事しか無かったら
凝り性は発動シないのかしら

其処が全く見えなくて
別の人類を視るような
気持ちにナって居ました

あ
コレは批判の対象
では無いんだな
そう判るのに
暫くは掛かって
しまいましたね

ただ
住む世界が違う
ってだけなんだと
はじめは想ってました

でも違う

同じ世界で
自分も其処に
流れていく可能性が
存分に有るのだ
と解ると
途端に
その不遇が
哀しく感じられて
同情を感じ始めました

I'm working hard toward a promise
I thought it was normal to get laid.
But when I realized that there are some people
I was ashamed of my ignorance.

The biggest surprise was the lack of research.
I thought of it as a kind of obsessive exposure.
I thought it was a manifestation of some kind of obsessive nature.
And that obsessiveness...
We all have it.

I used to think so.
There are jobs that I don't want to do.
I knew there was something about it.

If I only had that job...
I wonder if my obsession wouldn't be triggered if I only had that job.
I can't see that part at all.
It was like looking at another human being.
I felt like I was looking at another human being.

Oh.
This is not a criticism.
It took me a while to realize that.

It's just that we live in different worlds.
At first I thought...

But it's a different world.
I realized that there was a possibility that I could flow into it
I realized that there was a possibility that I could flow into that world.
I began to feel pity for their misfortune
I began to feel compassion.