My Letter to Myself in the Future (15) （未来の自分への手紙-15）

‘Good morning, MisaTK. How are you?’
‘I’ m fine. Thank you.’
‘It is the time to tell me what you are going to do in the next month. Tell me what you are going to do in March.’
‘To be honest, I have no idea about it at the moment.’
‘Are you OK? I heard the same words from you last month. I am tired of your words. You take enough time to think about your future, don't you?.’
‘That's not always so. It seems so to you. But I always think a lot about my future.’
‘Then, why can’t you tell me about it? You can say that you have done and is doing so. But it is the same as not thinking about it if you cannot tell me about it in concrete terms. I need to hear what you are doing in March in the concrete.’
‘What did you say? I cannot accept it. Not to mention, I am always thinking about my future. I know that it is crucial for me to survive. Moreover, I think about it day and night and am now trying some ideas.’
‘You said that you were trying some ideas. Tell me what is that.’
‘No, I don't want to.'
‘I’m very frustrated, and I'm not satisfied with it. Why not?'
‘Now, I am now trying some of them and want to continue them in March. But at the moment, I’m not sure if I will be able to continue them in March.’
‘I can understand your point. But if we cannot speak to each other frankly, it is meaningless to have this meeting, isn’t it?’
‘I agree with you.’
‘Then, tell me about your ideas. I am even happy to hear one of them.'
‘One of them is image collages. But I am struggling very hard with it. It was not as easy as I expected. So, I am not sure if I will be doing it in March.’
‘I see. Let’s end this here today. It was a waste time!’

関西弁風
「おはよう、MisaTK。元気にしてた？」
「うん、元気。ありがとう。」
「来月どうしているかを言う時や。3月は何をしてる？」
「正直な話、今のところわからんわ。」
「先月も同じことを言うてたで。うんざりやわ。将来を考える時間が十分取れてへんのとちゃう？」
「そうとは限らん。そう見えるかもしれんけど、常に、将来のことは考えてるで。」
「じゃあ、なんで教えてくれへんの？考えてきたとか考えているというのは勝手や。でも、
具体的に教えてくれへんかったら、考えてないのと一緒やで。３月に何をしてるか具体的に聞きたいねん。」
「なんやて？聞き捨てならんわ。いうまでもなく、常に、自分の将来のことは考えてるわ。生きていく上で、これが大事なのも分かってる。昼夜、考えているし、今、いくつかの
アイデアをトライしているところや。」
「今、アイデアを試してると言うたな。それを具体的に教えてくれへん？」
「できひん。」
「イライラするー。そんな返事では満足できひん。なんでや？」
「今、トライしているアイデアを３月になっても続けていたいけど、３月に続けられてるかどうかわからへんね。
「言いたいことは分かるで。でも、率直に話ができひんのなら、話をしても意味がないやろ。」
「同感や。」
「じゃー、アイデアについて話してよ。全部とは言わん、一部だけでも。」
「ひとつは、コラージュや。今、一生懸命やっているけど、思ってたより難しいねん。そやから、３月になってもやってるかどうかわからんわ。」
「分かった。今日は、これで終わりにしよう。時間の無駄やったわ。」