A Lunatic Ruminant #1/2

I've lost contact with so many in my life.

And I know it's not only because I'd lost my cellphones three times in the past decade.  Yes it does play a part, there are those who come to my mind from time to time, but I have no access to.  Yes I'm the one who don't have the patience to search who is where and how to contact!

Or there are those for whom I have purchased these pretty postcards and never able to hold time to prepare it to be shipped.  Meantime, the amount of what I want to talk to them grows enormous and I never feel like I can take enough time to express it !  My feelings are towards you friends, I am just...

Yes I have to admit I am one of the laziest in the world!  

If you were aware or not!  

So please, if you are wondering where Satomi is, doubt this once; 

she is willing to, but she just can't.  For a technical reason. 

--of not being able to handle her overloaded mind box. 

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There's another practical reason.  She might be too occupied.  I started life with my kid(s) in my early 20s, and all of a sudden my life didn't seem to be mine!  The two adorable munchkins innocently yet fiercely draw my limited attention from my easily-distracted-type of mind, and oftentimes I am literally lost, overwhelmed. 

In the last couple of years I've been striving to make space for myself aside from 'home'--place for serving the family members, 'work' --place for serving clients, so that I can keep my healthy relationship with my own self.  Filling this need to be connected to my own self, or beforehand to maintain my physical health, I have been learning, is (ideally) on top of my to-do list. 

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Please know, that my heart, at least, is sometimes towards you. 

More often than as you might imagine.  

After all, as a holy cow, I am a ruminant you know ;p

(TBC)