The first day of the three-day weekend

I’ve mentioned this a few times before, but for the past six months or so, I’ve been feeling really down.

The main reason is my struggles with work—whether it’s not going well, wanting to quit, or just being stuck in endless worries. On top of that, things aren’t going well with my wife, money is tight, and there’s nothing positive happening in my life right now.

Being in my mid-40s, I also find myself questioning and doubting my life as a whole.

I know it’s not helpful, but I sometimes catch myself scrolling through Facebook, comparing myself to classmates who seem to be doing well, and feeling even worse.

At times like this, I believe it’s best to stay calm and avoid rushing around aimlessly. But doing nothing also leaves me feeling like time is just slipping away without any progress.

Unfortunately, I haven’t been studying English much lately. The most I’ve done is watch American news media or NFL games on YouTube.

Today, just as a small effort, I tried solving a few questions from past Eiken Grade 1 exams. I know better than anyone that doing this won’t change anything. I just wanted to spend some time doing something I enjoy.

Tomorrow, I plan to go to the gym. I originally intended to go today, but I couldn’t get myself to do it. If I start skipping the gym, it’ll feel like a downward spiral, so I want to make sure I don’t let that happen.