241222 今昔嫌悪の裏構え

昔
ヒドい事をサれて

今も大嫌いなんだけど
それでも

出し抜かれるだけの先進性を
キチンと有シて居るからには

やはり僕は
敬意を以て接さないと
ヤってイケませんわね

忘れる事なんてデキないけど
イツまでも過去に拘泥
ってのも些か小せぇんじゃないか
そんな風にも想うんですよね

いつか出し抜いて
ギャフンと謂わせちゃうぞ
という決意というか
臥薪嘗胆というか

そのマインドだけは
もって居ても好いんだろうな

その位は
矜持とシて方寸に
シッカと仕舞って居ても
善いんじゃないか

とは想いますね

其れで居て現在は
友好的にヤってイケたなら

更に相手から
一目置かれて居たなら
最上ナンじゃないか

等と想う訳です
いま負けたとシても
生きて居るなら機会は
残されて居るのですから

是非とも一時
雌伏シて牙を研ぎ
その日を虎視眈々

待っても善いんじゃないか
とさえ想うのです
( ◠‿◠ )

241222 The posturing behind
the hatred of now and then

A long time ago.
He did some terrible things to me.

And I still hate it.

I still hate him, but he's still advanced enough to outwit me.

I have to treat you with respect.

It's impossible to forget.
I can't forget, but I think it's a little petty to dwell on the past forever.
That's how I feel.

Someday I'm going to beat him.
I'm determined to outwit them and make them laugh.

I think it's good to have that mindset.

I'm proud to be able to do that.
I think it's good to keep it in a safe place.

I think so.

And now
If you can do it in a friendly way

And if the other person
If you're getting a second glance...
I think that's the best

That's what I'm thinking.
Even if you lose now...
If you're still alive, you still have a chance.

I'll stay down and sharpen my fangs for a while
With an eagle eye on that day

and wait for that day with an eagle eye.
(◠‿◠)

by DeepL