240809 遺品の手帳とその文言、ジャンプ

砕けて後は元の土塊

祖父の遺品の手帳に
こんな感じの事が書いてあった

その時は
読み方も知らず
意味も分からず

でもフレーズだけは
不思議と憶えて居たんです

その後どこかで
意味を知って
しかも少しの縁を感じながら

手帳の端々に書き込まれた
その言葉の意味合いを
考える様にナっていました

僕なりの結論とシては
どうせ最後は勝者も敗者も
一塊のツチクレなのだから

生きて動ける内に
自分で決めてイイ間に
トコトン幸福を追究シようじゃないか

というモノにナりました

この様に捉えて見ると
陰鬱で先暗い印象だった人生が
自分の元へ戻って来た様な

責任も自分で取れるんだから
自分で決めて自分の為に
真の自由を獲得シた自分を通して
周りをも幸せにシていけたら

そう想える様にナったんです
(･ᴗ･)v

240809 Notebook of the estate
and its wording, jump.

crushed and the rest is the original clods of earth

I found something like this in my grandfather's notebook that belonged to him

I didn't know how to read it at the time.
I didn't know what it meant

But I remembered the phrase in a strange way.

Then somewhere along the way
I knew what it meant.
And feeling a little connection

I knew the meaning of the phrase
I began to think about the implications of those words

I came to my own conclusion
In the end, winners and losers are all lumps of earth

While we are still alive and able to move
While you can make your own decisions
I have come to the conclusion that we should pursue happiness to the fullest

That's what I've come to think.

When I look at it this way
I feel as if my life, which had seemed so gloomy and bleak
It's as if it's coming back to me.

I can take responsibility for myself.
I can make my own decisions for myself
I've achieved true freedom
I can make the people around me happy

That's how I feel now.
(･ᴗ･)v

by DeepL