230421 ジャンプ・恩人

ジャンプ
14:34、最高70回

今日は恩人の誕生日

色んな機会をくれて
ナケナシの財布から
お金を持たせてくれて

僕をキチンとオトコ
にもシてくれた人

恩はアマリに大きく
到底返せやしないし
今とナッては
返し方も分からない

でも僕は忘れない
決して忘れないし
恩返しの機会を
虎視眈々と待って
いるのです

他にも恩人は居るの
数えだしたら両手じゃ足りない

だから
思い出す度に
頭を掻きながら
その頃の不遜や不義理を
恥じつつも敢えて
連絡を取る事にシています

更なる不義理を
恥を忍んで言ってしまえば
思い出せない恩人も
確実に居る訳で
思い出すと正に
顔から火の出るような

廉恥と云えば
カッコつけ過ぎかしら
羞恥がピッタリだな
そういう気持ちにナって
一人お布団で悶えるのです

230421 Jump, benefactor

Jumped 14:34, 70 times max.

Today is my benefactor's birthday.

For giving me all kinds of opportunities
who gave me money out of his empty wallet
who has made me a man again.
I can never repay my debt to him
I don't know how to repay you now

But I will never forget.
I'll never forget, and I'll be waiting for the chance to return the favor
I'm waiting for the opportunity to return the favor

There are others to whom I owe so much
I can't count them all on two hands
I scratch my head every time I think of them
I'm ashamed of my irreverence and dishonesty
I dare to contact you.

I'm ashamed to say that I've been even more dishonest
There are definitely people I owe a debt of gratitude to that I can't recall.
When I think of them, I feel as if my face is on fire.

I'm not sure if I'm being too cool when I say I'm ashamed.
Shame is more like it.
It's like...
I writhe in bed alone.

By DeepL