241231 訃報、成熟と感受性

冬木透
この名を
こんな気持ちで聞く日を

もちろん来る事は解っていた
覚悟は出来ているつもり
その筈でしたが

やはり不意ダったのも有って
ガツンと喰らいましたね

またの訃報です

接点なんて無いし
ましてや思い入れだって
作品を愛している
ただソレだけかも知れません

でも何だろう
この胸に去来スる
切ない感じ

コレって僕の感受性
の話ナのかしら

訃報が響く歳にナったのか
こういう情報を感じられる様に
人間とシて成長シたのか

冬の寒さですかね…
ジンジンと身に沁みます

今はただ
この心理的な揺らぎや
凹みに似た感慨を
胸に刻み込んで

語弊を恐れずに謂えば
何か自分の表現に生かしたい
と想います

人の死を乗り越えて
尚も進む僕らは

自分の順番が来るまで
腰を引かずに
足を前に出して行きたいなぁ
と想います

241231 Obituaries, Maturity and Sensitivity

Tohru Fuyuki
This name
The day I hear it with this feeling...

Of course, I knew it would come.
I thought I was prepared for it.
I thought I was.

But as I thought, it came as a surprise.
I got hit hard.

Another obituary.

We didn't have any connection.
I don't even have a connection with him.

I love your work.
Maybe that's all.

But I don't know.
This sad feeling that comes over me

Is it just my sensitivity?

Have I reached an age when news of his death
Or maybe I've grown up to be able to feel this kind of information.

Is it the cold of winter?
I feel it deeply.

Now it's just
This psychological fluctuation
And a feeling similar to a depression
in my heart.

I want to use it to express myself in some way
I would like to make use of it in my own expression.

Overcoming the death of others
We are still going forward

Until it's our turn to go forward
I want to put my feet forward

by DeepL