2024/04/12 English

BGM: John Lennon - Imagine

This morning, I attended a meeting on ZOOM. We talked about job interviews and job-hunting experiences. A woman from America taught us her story. According to her, now the interviewee can't ask others any "private" questions such as "Do you want to get married in the future?" or "Do you want to have your kid?" etc. After that, we talked about the Japanese environment of job hunting. At least in Japan, we still have to endure various phenomena from the inequality between men and women.

On this topic, I have to look back at this fact - I'm male and heterosexual, so have been attracted to women. From this viewpoint, various things can have been hidden. For example, I can walk out at night alone safely (at least, I have never encountered any dangerous event until now). But, if I were a woman? Could I walk out on the street or enjoy shopping at any stores alone?

Thinking about these things, I have to go back to this basic point - Probably because I'm male, I can have been free from any sex crime such as molesters or other kinds of perverts - Besides that, maybe my life's quality itself might have been better than women's ones because of this sex (or simply, because the fact I have the "male" organ). When I was a college student (around 20), I tried to read plenty of "bubbly" philosophical books which taught me quite catchy opinions such as "A person can have multiple identities" and "You can throw away your identity/sexuality to become a strong, liberated existence".

This afternoon, with that idea, I went to the library and borrowed Chizuko Ueno's book "Sexually-excited Equipment [上野千鶴子『発情装置』]". Although this author's works are quite popular in Japan (in a way, she is one of the most "notoriously" greatest feminists), I have never read her so decided to read any single book, and want to start learning how feminism has been getting along with our society.

This evening, I read the rest of Genichiro Takahashi's mega-novel "DJ Hirohito [高橋源一郎『DJヒロヒト』]" until the beginning of the fourth chapter, and thought this. What is the ideology I have believed by now? What is the core of my ideas? In other words, why can I have survived until now? What is the thing I can't lose? Oh, I can't write about this topic anymore because I have already written too long.