the box: Re5

昨日から続いております、礒貝剛さんの箱に関する三日連続の翻訳記事ですニャ🌈

英語ではありますが、良ければ、ゆっくり眺めて頂き、何かを感じて頂ければ嬉しいですニャ🌟

原作：

小春の好きににゃった人のお話ですにゃ📷

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One day, a viral picture of a beautiful landscape
on social media caught Koharu’s attention.

Koharu was avoiding men even on social media.
And whenever she decided to leave a comment or like to a post,
she always checked the owner of the account was a male or female.

But the picture of the count icon was also a landscape.
Also, the account name couldn’t tell if it was male or female.

The wording in the caption was too ambiguous to tell
whether it was a male or female.

Koharu went through the other pictures on the account,
but there were no clues to tell the gender.

Even though Koharu couldn’t come up with a final decision
if the owner of the account is male or female,
her urge to engage with him/her was bigger than her suspicion.

The landscape and photo were not something special
but the way it was taking made it look somewhere
that nobody has been before.

Koharu commented to one of the posts and said
"It's a wonderful photo."
The owner of the account replied "Thank you."

Koharu began to engage on the other posts on this account
by liking and commenting on the pictures that inspired her.

After a while, Koharu got curious and she asked me
if the owner of the account was a male or female.

I felt like it was a male.

Koharu might have the same feeling.

I said "I think it’s a male".
Koharu looked happy and that made me happy too.

It made me feel that Koharu came over her past trauma, when she had her first engagement with a boy on social media when she was in high school.

I also felt that Koharu was thinking she would never be
able to have any kind of relationship with boys or men.

I thought when Koharu was creating her own clothes and accessories was helping her to take her mind off of that men-phobia trauma.

I remember praying for her and hoped this time will be different.

As Koharu kept engaging with that account which the owner might be a male, they got closer day by day.

They even start to DM each other and also started
to connect on other social platforms

Even they were communicating,
Koharu couldn’t figure out if it was a male or female.

After asking the owner’s name of the account,
Koharu finally found out that it was a man.
Koharu came to tell me about that.

And then she asked
"What should I do?"

But when I looked at her, she had a little grin on her face
and didn't look like she was worried.

She also told me that his name was "Mutsuo-san".

I felt really happy seeing Koharu getting excited with meeting men,
knowing after all the time she was avoiding them even on social media.
Koharu gave her heart to Mutsuo-san.

They kept in touch and talked about a lot of things.
She also confessed that she had male-phobia.

Then, one day, Koharu came to me and said,
"I would like to meet Mutsuo-san."

I wanted Koharu to make her wish come true, so I said,
"Why don’t you tell him you want to meet him?"

I also told her that if they are going to meet, I’ll go with her.

After a short silence of consideration, Koharu nodded and said "Yes!" with a determined expression.

It's a big deal for Koharu.

After that, Koharu was worried about
how she should invite him, so we talked about it.

Because of her phobia, the first thing that was difficult to decide was where to meet. She couldn’t tolerant to be in crowded places.

But we were also too naive and hesitant to invite a man into our room.

So it had to be somewhere public but with not much people around.
Definitely, it's not a good place to meet a someone that you meet at first.

Koharu was worried that he would not like to meet us, because we caught up too much in small details of how to meet each other.

"Then, why don't you ask him to take your picture?"
I suggested and also added,

"If you want him to take pictures for your own clothes,
it's natural for us to come to a place where there aren't many people and
it's also natural for me to go with you as a model."

"You’re right! Saki, that’s a good idea."
Koharu liked my idea.

Koharu started to
create a message for Mutsuo-san right away.

However, Koharu said,

"But if Mutsuo-san accepted our idea to take a photo,
wouldn’t we be taking advantage of his kindness?"

I said “Yeah, we might be…”

"I know you’re coming up with great ideas, but I can't do it.
Sorry for being so critical, Saki."

In response, I said,
"Just to do whatever make sense to you."

She replied, "Although I might make him feel annoyed,
I'll explain my current situation and then ask him to meet me."

Then she went back to writing the message again.

Because of her phobia, the only way Koharu was meeting men
was through social media.
She was avoiding men even when she first started using social media.
I don’t know if she can be able to find someone in the future.

However, I knew that feeling regret would be a heavy burden for Koharu.

The reason why Koharu started avoiding men with on social media
was because she was scared just by being invited.
And she was afraid that she might do the same thing this time again,
but, on the other hand, she also knew that she will regret if she takes advantage of other kindness.

I prayed that Koharu's choice would lead to good results.
In this period, all I could do was to pray for Koharu’s success.

Koharu spent several hours to write a perfect message.

When Koharu finished writing, she showed me what she wrote and asked
“Will this be all right?”.

I wanted to support Koharu, as much as I could,
so I read it very carefully.

Her message was very straightforward by saying she wanted meet him.
She also sincerely apologized that she required many tiny conditions to meet.

I thought her message was very sincere
and would give a good impression.

I told Koharu "This would be great!"

Koharu thanked me and gave it a final check.

Koharu took some time and gave her final thoughts
before she hit the send button.

I remember even I got a nervous at that moment.

We felt releived by the extreme tension we had sending the message and there was a moment of pure silence between us after sending it.
 
After a few minutes in that pure awkward silence, we jumped up by the ring tone on Koharu’s phone
 
We felt the ring tone was like a growling wild tiger or lion that caught us from behind. It was a reply from Mutsuo-san.

He replied, he would love to meet us.

We were surprised since it was way much easier than we thought
to meet Mutsuo-san.

Koharu continued exchanging messages with Mutsuo-san.

It was the time for final conclusion to decide
where and how they would meet.

Mutsuo-san said, “Anywhere would be okay.”

He said that he will be using a map application for navigation.

Koharu asked me if I can pick Mutsuo-san up whenever he gets lost on his way. I said, "Sure! I can."

I was committed to do anything I could
to eliminate any kind of Koharu’s worries that she had.

This is the way the great journey, the attempt to meet Mutsuo-san went smoothly.

Koharu was already thinking about what to wear.

"Since I'm not going to meet him in the city,
it seems weird If I don’t put on casual.

I watched her trying out many clothes.

After they decided to meet, Koharu started talking about
Mutsuo-san a lot more than ever.

Days went by very fast and finally,
the actual date to meet has come.

We were both busy preparing that morning.
I bought some water and I asked her if she wanted to take it with her.

But, Koharu didn’t answer.

I thought she couldn’t hear me because she was busy for preparing.

Calling her name, I went to into her room.
But at that moment, I turned pale.

She was lying aside on the floor,
like she was holding her stomach.

Her seizure came back again…

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原作：礒貝剛さん

あとがき：
今回の説明は時系列的には遡っていく仕様にゃんですが、
それでも私が個猫的に気に入っている表現を3つ選びましたので、
良ければ、ご覧くださいニャ🐾

・睦夫さんと小春の出会いが決定した時の、この表現がお気に入りですにゃ🌈

This is the way the great journey, the attempt to meet Mutsuo-san went smoothly.

男性恐怖症を抱えている小春にとって、憧れの男性と合うのは本当に旅みたいなもので🚢素敵にゃ表現にゃのです🎵

・何時間も考えあぐねて、睦夫さんに失礼のにゃいように、でも自分の状況も説明して、と悪戦苦闘した先で、ヒョッコリ睦夫さんから返信が来る時の、この表現も好きですニャ(#^^#)

We felt the ring tone was like a growling wild tiger or lion that caught us from behind. It was a reply from Mutsuo-san.

これは、分かりやすく文章で動と静を表しているのですが、原文では「うなる」という言葉が使われているのですにゃ📚

そこから、精一杯考えた文章でも気に入ってもらえるか分からない、無事に会えるのか心配な気持ちでドキドキしている中で突然、携帯がうなる！
心臓が飛び出るくらいびっくりするけど、睦夫さんからの連絡で少し安堵して、メッセージを開く、その先で、すんなりと合える流れになる🌷

という一連の流れとそれに伴うドキドキ感が伝われば嬉しいですニャ(*'▽')

・最初の方で、小春と睦夫さんがメッセージのやり取りで少しずつ心を通わせていく場面〇
ここの原文に「小春は睦夫さんに心を許していきました。」という言葉がありましたにゃ👓

Koharu gave her heart to Mutsuo-san.

最終の方で（軽いネタバレですが）、睦夫さんは小春の心臓にキスをするのです。それは比喩であり、物理的でもあるのですが。実際の英語でも、こうした表現は多く見受けられますが、この二入にとってはかなり特別な意味合いを込めた最もお気に入りの一文ですニャ💝

言葉で表し尽くせない思いが溢れて実は今、鳴いているのですが🎈

本当にこの作品に出会って、私なりに細々ではあるものの触れ続けて3年が経過しようとしているのですが、色々と考えさせられる作品ですニャ📚

恋、というのは、しなければ見えにゃい景色や感情があって、
でも、小春と咲は、それがにゃくても穏やかにゃ時間を過ごせていた訳にゃのです🎐

睦夫さんと出会うことで、それまでよりも濃度の濃い様々にゃ感情に揺れ動かされることににゃる。

結論だけ見れば、その出会いがにゃければ小春と咲は穏やかに生きていられたように感じるのですにゃ☕

でも。どうにゃんでしょうね？

穏やかで優しい時間の中でのみ生きていくのか
濃い感情に飲まれて早く還るのか

どちらが幸せにゃんでしょう🍡

叶うなら、濃厚な感情も程よく味わいつつ、基本的には穏やかで優しい時間軸で貴方とのんびり生きていきたいと願う私はワガママ猫にゃのかも知れませんね🌷

溢れる思いのまま、ツラツラと書いてしまいましたが、
明日で、ひとまず三日連続の翻訳シリーズは最後ににゃります♪

また、人知れず、ずっと触れ続けて、ヒョッコリ
「出来ましたにゃ🌈」とお届けに参りますので（笑）
良ければ、のんびりとお楽しみくださいニャ🍰

本日も最後までお読み頂き、有難うございます♪🐈