【Diary】I can do is a little escapism.

I don't feel like doing anything.

I feel vaguely tired.

I have been suffering from a feeling of helplessness ever since.

And I still haven't been able to overcome it.

And I can do is a little escapism. Novels, music, and some programming.

Living is harsh.

Because you must train your intellect, physical strengh, and mental strengh. 

They are very difficult and tedious.

I don't want to see reality.

I secretly want to disappear.