#19 当たり前という奇跡-1
ついに最終章に入りました．
season2までは移植までの前段階．
移植前の最後の長期外泊を終え，いよいよ移植に向けた準備と治療がスタートします．
季節は11月．
移植をするまでの期間，そして移植，移植後のドラマをぜひご覧ください．
移植前治療〜移植
２００３．１１．１７(月)
短い1ヵ月の仮退院が終わり，病院に戻って来ました．無事，戻ってこられました．良かった．この１ヶ月は，本当に充実していた．まるで最後の休みを謳歌するように．中学時代の仲間たちと思いっきり野球やサッカーをした．まるで中学生のように，スキンヘッドの白豚（自分のこと）がボールを追っかけては，ボールを投げたり蹴ったりした．本当に思う存分やれた．というか，本当に付き合いの良い仲間たちに巡り会えて幸せだ．皆それぞれ，やらなくちゃいけないこともあるだろうに，誰も何も言わずに付き合ってくれる．本当に一生の仲間だ．移植が成功したら，また仲間たちとふざけ合いたい．そしてちゃんとお礼を言おう．両親とは海に行った．I県が誇る，○○だ．海を見たのは高校１年の時の館山合宿以来だった．海には不思議な力があり，海を見ているだけで気分が上がる．そして力になる．寒かったけど笑．でも，なぜ両親は海に連れて行ってくれたんだろう．まるで最後になるかもしれないことを知っているかのように．なんて，ドラマを見すぎでしょうね．とまぁ．本当に充実した一ヵ月でした．
思い出に浸りながらも，移植に向けての準備が始まった．今日は移植を受けるための太い管を入れる処置，IVH挿入術を受けた．これまで何回この処置を受けたのだろう．これが最後になればいいなと思いながら受けました．相変わらずの痛み．二度と忘れないぞ．そして，いよいよ明後日から放射線治療が始まります．なんとか耐えてみせます．それでは，また明日．
２００３．１１．１８(火)
今，昨日入れたIVHで補液を入れている．昨日，IVHを入れたが，たまたまニュースでこの処置に失敗したというニュースが流れていた．不安なまま挿入術を受けたが，主治医のM先生のテクニックで無事問題なく処置を終えることができた．感謝ですね．
放射線が明日から始まるということで，今日は筋力測定をしてもらった．本当に弱ったなと感じた．これが移植で動けなくなったらもっとさらに弱っていってしまうんだろう．まだ自分は１０代だからいいけど，年配の方だったらもっと弱っていってしまうんだろうな．そんなことを予防できることができればいいのに．
また，今日は野球部仲間のお父さんが見舞いに来てくれた．この間の退院した時に，練習試合で俺が登板した時のことを熱く語ってくれた．本当に嬉しかった．父兄の方からも勇気をもらった．こういう野球部に入れ本当に良かったなと感じた．明日から始まる治療，相当きついことが予想されるけど，誇りとする我が母校で培った忍耐力で耐えしのぎたいと思います．それでは．
We have finally entered the final chapter of the season, the pre-transplant phase of season 2. After the last long overnight stay before transplantation, the preparation and treatment for transplantation finally begins.
The season is November. Please take a look at the drama of the period leading up to, during, and after transplantation.
Pre-transplant treatment - Transplantation
2003.11.17 (Mon.)
After a short one-month stay in the hospital, the patient returned to the hospital. He came back safely. I am glad. This month was really fulfilling. It was as if I was enjoying my last vacation. I played baseball and soccer with my friends from junior high school. I chased after the ball like a white pig with a skinny head (that's me), throwing and kicking the ball like a junior high school student. We really had our fill. I mean, I'm really lucky to have such a good group of friends. Everyone has their own thing they have to do, but no one ever says a word. They are truly my friends for life. After the success of the transplant, I want to joke around with them again. I will thank them for their hospitality. I went to the beach with my parents...the pride of I-prefecture, ________. I hadn't seen the ocean since my first year of high school at the Tateyama camp. The ocean has a mysterious power, and just looking at it lifts my spirits. Just looking at the ocean lifts my spirits and gives me strength. It was cold, but I laughed.
But why did my parents take me to the sea? As if they knew it might be the last time. I must have watched too many dramas. Oh well. It really was a fulfilling month.
While we were reminiscing, preparations for the transplant began. Today, I underwent IVH insertion, a procedure to insert a large tube for transplantation. I wonder how many times I have undergone this procedure. I hope this will be the last time I have to undergo this procedure. Pain as usual. I'll never forget it. The day after tomorrow, I will start radiation therapy. I'm going to endure it somehow. See you tomorrow.
2003.11.18(Tue)
I'm now getting the IVH fluid that was put in yesterday. I had IVH inserted yesterday, but the news happened to report that the procedure had failed. I was anxious about the procedure, but my doctor, Dr. M's technique allowed me to complete the procedure without any problems. I am very thankful for that.
Radiation is scheduled to start tomorrow, so I had my muscle strength measured today. I felt that I had really weakened. If I can't move due to the transplant, I will probably become even weaker. I'm still in my teens, so it's OK, but if I were an older person, I'd probably be even weaker. I wish there was something we could do to prevent that from happening.
Also, the father of one of my baseball teammates came to visit me today. He told me about the time I pitched in a practice game when he was discharged from the hospital the other day. I was really happy. The parents also gave me courage. I felt very lucky to be a member of such a baseball club. The treatment starting tomorrow is expected to be very hard, but I will endure it with the perseverance I have cultivated at my alma mater, which I am very proud of. Good bye.