#13 当たり前は当たり前じゃ無い-8

２００３．９．１４(日)
　今日，白血球が４００，赤血球が５．８，血小板が１．９となった．一昨日と比べて，本当に微妙であるが改善の兆しが出て来た．おかげでようやく点滴が終了し，ヘパロックされた．歩いて病棟廊下を歩くときにいちいち邪魔な点滴スタンドを押さなくて良くなったので，多少自由度が上がった．しかし，まだアイソレーターは外れず．なので，マスクはまだ外せません．今回は白血球の上がりがとても悪く，輸血もいつも以上に多く入れてもらった．元主治医の先生に相談したら，骨髄が疲れているのではないかとのこと．これまでの治療で何度も何度もダメージをくらっている骨髄．確かにそうなのかもしれない．急性だから，休む時間を長くとってしまったら，悪い細胞がより増えていってしまうのだろうし．頑張り時なのだろう．頑張ろう．
 
２００３．９．１５(月)
　今日も採血をした．昨日と比べると，約２倍近く量が増えていた．でも，まだ好中球の割合が少なく，白血球全体の中でも約５%程度とのことだった．でも少しずつ上がってきているので，明後日頃にはアイソレーターが外れるだろう．つまり，白血球は１０００以上，好中球は５００以上になれなければならないということになります．早く退院したいものです．．．
 
２００３．９．１６(火)
　今日，Mさんが退院された．その代わりに入って来た人が，かなりいびきがうるさい．だから音楽を聴きながらでないと，とてもじゃないけど寝れたもんじゃない．身体の方は，元気で吐き気，ムカムカもない．これで副作用が強く出ていたら，いびき騒動はもっと大変になるだろう．しかしいびきを出している当の本人は気づいていないのだろうか．自分自身，いびきをかいているかどうかわからないが，これまで言われたことがないからきっと静かなのだろう．それにしてもうるさい，でも，しょうがないのか．結構ストレスだけど我慢しなきゃな．ここは大部屋だし．明日は採血．上がってくれているんだろうな，楽しみです．
 
２００３．９．１７(水)
　やった！退院だ！！！退院といっても仮だけど．でもやった！！今日の結果はというと，白血球３６００，赤血球７．２，血小板３．０だった．血小板が少し低いことが気になるけど，まぁいいや！どうでも！だって退院だもん！
　そして今，部屋は騒がしいことになっている．患者の総入れ替えが行われているのだ．右斜め前にいた人はすでに退院し，新しい人が入って来ている．隣の人は自分よりも早く退院話があったようだが，炎症反応が長く続いているらしく，延期されている．おそらく，来週あたりに退院だろうか．
　それでは，しばし外界の空気を吸って来ます！！

第一章　完

2003.9.14(Sun) Today, the white blood cell count was 400, the red blood cell count was 5.8 and the platelet count was 1.9. Compared with the day before yesterday, there are signs of improvement, although they are really subtle. Thanks to this, the drip was finally finished and he was heparocked. I no longer have to push the infusion stand when I walk along the ward corridor, which gives me a little more freedom. However, the isolator has not been removed yet. The mask cannot be removed yet. This time, my white blood cell count was very low and I had to have more blood transfusions than usual. I consulted my former doctor, who suggested that my bone marrow might be tired. The bone marrow has been damaged over and over again by the treatment so far. It may indeed be so. If he takes a long time to rest because of the acute condition, the bad cells will increase... I guess it's time to hang in there. Let's keep on trying.

2003. 9. 15 (Mon) Blood samples were taken again today. Compared to yesterday, the amount of blood was almost twice as much as yesterday. However, the proportion of neutrophils is still low, about 5% of the total white blood cells. The isolator will be removed the day after tomorrow. This means that the white blood cell count should be over 1000 and the neutrophil count over 500. I can't wait to get out of the hospital ...

2003.9.16(Tue) Mr. M was discharged from hospital today. The new patient who came in instead of him snores very loudly. So I can't sleep very well unless I listen to music. Physically, I feel fine, no nausea, no queasiness. If the side effects were stronger, the snoring would be much worse. But the person who is snoring doesn't even know he is snoring, does he? I don't know if I myself snore, but I've never been told, so I must be quiet. Still, it's noisy, but it can't be helped. It's quite stressful, but I have to put up with it. This is a big room. Tomorrow they'll take blood. I'm looking forward to it.

2003. 9. 17 (Wed) Yay! I'm out of hospital! I've been discharged, but only temporarily. But I did it! Today's results were: white blood cells 3600, red blood cells 7.2, platelets 3.0. I'm a bit concerned about the platelets being a bit low, but that's okay! Whatever! Because I'm out of hospital!　And now the room is noisy. A total change of patients is taking place. The man diagonally to my right has already been discharged and a new man is coming in. The person next to me was discharged earlier than me, but his inflammatory reaction seems to have continued for a long time, so his discharge has been postponed. He will probably be discharged next week.　Well then, I'm off to get some fresh air!

Chapter 1: Complete