Leave it behind in 2024

Today is the end of the year, which means it's time to look back on my 2024. Bunch of things have happened, in the past 2 months, after I moved to this country, Australia. Even this past week, big events took place, which might surprise you. Today, I'll share one of big events with you.

Like I've been sharing on 'note' these days, I had made up my mind to end our 2-and-a half-year-relationship. But, I didn't expect to it to end so poorly. Since the day we argued, everything in our relationship has turned worse. (In a way, it was good cuz it allowed me to rethink the direction of our relationship.) We had lunch together on Dec 26th. To be honest, it was just boring. He didn't talk anything, that made me understand how he felt for me. It was clear that he had no feelings for me. I was always the one questioning our relationship, how it was going. what our future looked like, as I took those matters seriously. He never knew that I had the courage to ask those types of questions. So once again, I started a serious conversation. 'What do you want to do?' I asked. He said, 'I don't have anything to talk about.' I asked, 'Does that mean you want to break up with me?' He said, 'Yes' and then started looking at his smartphone. It surprised me, as I thought our conversation wasn't over yet, so I said, 'Is there still something that we should talk? What made you fed up with me?' He replied, still looking at his smartphone, 'What? what more do you wanna ask, even though it's already over?'

I was just disappointed in him. I had thought that I would feel sad once we really broke up. But, that expectation was totally wrong. I didn't even feel sad about it. Right after our conversation over, I found myself deleting all the photos with him without hesitation, photos filled with 2 and a half years of memories. I don't have time to spend my precious, lovely days feeling nothing but misery.

It's really strange that we have to stay together till the the house contract end, even after we broke up. I'm still in a complicated situation, but he is no longer my boyfriend,  just a roommate. You also must be surprised by how someone who used to be one of the ppl who I cherished easily turn into someone less than a normal friend.

Anyway, I'm glad that I can leave it behind in 2024 and welcome the year, 2025, in a good mood. Whishing you a wonderful new year!

Thank you for reading. I love you, my dearest readers.