Late-night log that will fade out soon

"There are numerous numbers of opinions especially here in Japan for people living abroad or going to study in foreign countries"

I just don't care. All the other people are NOT the same as me of course, they have a controversial opinion since all of the things have pros and cons on their side.
However, since this platform is full of people's thoughts (and tangible opinions get more popular with likes), I do not have any right to deny those.

For example, study methods. They seem to not have any relevance to what I was trying to say, though it is similar. Each person has their own style of learning, such as writing and scribbling papers in memorization, or shouting out the key vocabulary on what will appear on tests.

No one can force students to stick to one study method, because each personality and characteristic will define whether that fits each.
That is exactly the same as the opinions I think about studying abroad. I don't care if you didn't fit in or you had a disastrous life in that country because I am not going to follow all of your opinions because it might not be the case for me:) 

Anyways, that is something I had been thinking lately about parents and people on the internet criticizing people challenging or trying new stuff, I know it's selfish but I want to always follow the path I want to walk. I want to always keep my opinion with no distractions, but with some interpretations. 

I do have some thoughts of being extremely worried about my future. I want to have a degree in physics, though I still don't have any kind of confidence in deciding my dream to one section and path. I still have many dreams that I want to accomplish, and become a better person, being mature both inner and outer.
What is being mature? This is an absolute question I bet adults can't even answer unless they are a philosopher or something, but I hope I can be the one who can confidently state this in the next few years. 

I have been reading novels recently when I feel lost in something and want to quit everything I possess right now. Don't want to compare anything to others but I still do since they are the ones distracting me. Lately trying to ignore them and focus on myself, which I need to work on furtherly.

Well, I had been writing quite a lot, (hoping other assignments can also go this smoothly in a number of words) with no particular topics just junking all of the thoughts in my mind. Just for a conclusion, I want to manifest to myself in decision-making, that I should latterly decide everything on my own and be mature enough to pick from various opportunities, with criteria of great past experiences.

Fingers crossed for my future,
Peace out;)