日記24 : Gloomy Day

I understand that there are few benefits for myself or others in sharing negative thoughts online, especially within a community focused on learning. However, I find myself lacking the energy to think about other positive theme and write it powerfully so I just recorded my real feelings.

Now, at the end of the day, I’m feeling bad, tired, and disappointed with myself. Usually, on days like this, I think it’s because of the weather or my physical condition, but today the weather was perfect, and I had no health problems. If I had to pinpoint a reason, it would be that I didn’t perform well at work today and I didn’t make much progress. I know I should change my mindset and do what I need to do, but sometimes it’s so painful to start things when I’m depressed.

However, I might find myself writing about my dismal feelings again in the future, and in that case, the content would be identical to this article. Therefore I will make a note of the fact that I used and learned the word ‘dismal’ for the first time today.