I am a transgender

Until now, I only told people close to me that I was transgender in Japan, but when I came to New Zealand, I changed my mind, so I decided to make it public.
There are three main reasons why I didn’t share before:

① I didn't want to be discriminated against or to be seen as a spectacle.

②I didn't think it was necessary for other people to know about my personal information. It's my privacy, and I thought there was no need to take the risk and tell anyone while some people have negative ideas about sexual minorities. I thought it also might affect my work.

③I didn't want to be seen as a person who is obsessed with gender.
I wanted to be just Yuki, not a transgender Yuki. I didn't like the fact that if I post a lot about gender, it would seem like I was too obsessed about it.

10 years ago, I heard that LGBT was about 10% of the population, it’s like the same proportion as left-handed people.

That's why I thought I wasn't that special about my gender. There may actually be more people.

But recently, I read a book called "Irreversible Damage; The Transgender Craze Seducing Our Daughters". This book said transgender is about 0.01% of the population.

I wonder why I didn't notice, but there is a big difference between LGB and T.
Transgender people do not match their gender identity and body gender.
LGB means that romantic feelings are felt in the same sex or both sexes.

When I saw the figure of 0.01%, I realized again that I was more of a minority than I thought.

It is clearly more difficult to live in Japan than in NZ.
I have given up something because I was transgender, and I felt more patient and uncomfortable in my daily life in Japan than in New Zealand.

Even in New Zealand, sometimes my identity is still not understood, but LGBT is clearly "normal" in New Zealand compared to Japan.

I’ve learned for 30 years how to live without feeling anything, ignoring unpleasant things that happen in Japan. I don't care what somebody says to me. Pass it away. I have dealt with daily discomfort with this attitude, but not everyone has the strength to let go of unpleasant things.

While living in New Zealand, the environment in which I can tell people that I am a transgender without fear or can be pronounced with He/Him was very comfortable, and I felt that it felt easier to breathe than when I was in Japan.

Until now, I thought it would be good if “I ”could live without getting hurt,and I didn't have to announce that I was transgender.

But someday, I hope Japan will  become a world where LGBT people can live comfortably like New Zealand.

That’s why I decided to publish this because I thought it would be nice if I could send my message to people who are troubled by being transgender and find it difficult to live, and if I could encourage or help them.