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朝鮮からの移民である祖父母と両親が東京にて知り合い結婚・私と兄弟誕生。母親（朝鮮からの移民のルーツを持つ）・その祖父母は朝鮮での厳しい歴史を背負ったトラウマから日本へ。

日本の国の機関の方々は韓国姓である「盧」という名を奪い、「黒崎」という姓を名乗れとの命令。長崎に移ったところで戦争・原爆投下（長崎佐世保市にて過ごし戦争を経験。空から絶え間なく火の玉が飛んできたとの形容。逃げ回る。そこから再生する日常のなかで日本人からの差別偏見。

戦中・戦後、日本人によって朝鮮人は体育館に集められ、拷問を受けたとのこと（祖母談）。祖母は私にいろいろな事実を口伝にて伝えたが「誰にも言うな、いじめ（差別・偏見にあう）にあうから」とのことですこし混乱をおぼえた。祖母は朝鮮の料理や言語を懸命に教えようとしたが私も学校で若干差別のようなことがありこの話題から距離を置くようになる。

（祖母はキムチなど日常の料理に何にでもニンニクを使ったので、口臭が発生した。それを同級生より指摘を受け、（「くさい、くさい！！」とみんなが騒ぎ立てた。）周囲への迷惑や恥を感じるようになった。祖母の娘（私の母）は帰化しているが純粋な朝鮮のルーツである。（両親ともに朝鮮人）。

生来生物学的に繊細・敏感なのではと思わせる。感覚過敏。勘（第六感？）の強さ。感覚入力の差異。祖父（母の父）は朝鮮の実家（大邱）で母親失踪後、継母が来てから折檻などを受ける。

継母と実父の間に子が誕生してから折檻が激しくなり柿の木に紐でくくって吊るされるようになる。ここにいると殺されると悟り１３歳児時逃げ出す。日本へ。その場しのぎの肉体労働で過ごす。九州の飯場にて祖母の父（曾祖父）に見込まれ見合いを設定し祖母と結婚。母が生まれる（その他異父兄弟2名）。祖父は途中からアルコール依存症となり暴力を振るうようになる。

佐世保での生活にて（持ち家）、祖母と母は日夜苛烈な暴行を受ける。母は犬小屋で寝たり部屋で寝る際には包丁を布団に忍ばせ応戦するようになる。成長に伴い取っ組み合いに発展。祖父はアルコールをやめられずいつも泣いており肝硬変となる。内科や精神科病院へ入退院を繰り返す。

地下室へこもり泣きながら酒を飲む日々を送る。母親は思春期を迎え、たいへんに不安定な人格へ。不特定多数の男性と交際・夜に出歩く・とにかくじっと出来ず感情のコントロールが出来ない。

１６～１７歳時交際相手と同情していた車で事故に遭い負傷。顔面は傷だらけになりその後形成・美容整形手術などを繰り返しながらもとの顔にもどしていく。酷いむちうちや頭痛などに苦しむ。整形手術など病院を行き来するながれで上京。銀座ホステスをする。同店支配人であった父と結婚。

私と兄弟２人計３人の子をもうける。長崎佐世保（実家）に帰郷しながら祖母に子育てを手伝ってもらう。精神不安定・産後鬱。いつも精神が不安定。感情のコントロールが出来ず子を殴る蹴る怒鳴るなどする。

後悔・泣くことの繰り返し。祖母が子守りをしたりするなかわれわれ子供たちは子供たちだけで身の回りのことを行う。父は母と一緒に開店した飲食店の仕事で家庭を顧みる暇がない。母は不安定さから何人もの異性と不倫を繰り返す。（うち一名が母の現夫である）。

父は飲食店（居酒屋）経営と母の不倫・資金繰りと３人の子育てに苦しみ、子を虐待するようになる。母は家を出て現夫と再婚。２児をもうける。再婚相手は海上自衛隊の職員であり転居が多く、２５回以上転居をしている。官舎～持ち家を３件ほど購入・売却など。

母は大学病院精神科（横浜市大）では当時「躁鬱病」の診断。主治医と喧嘩し服薬を嫌がる。治療を中断。おそらく基には発達障害的な要素があるのかも知れない。（PTSDのせいか？）不安定なままの育児により二人の子供にも安定した養育態度をとれず。

とにかくじっとできず、泣いたり怒鳴ったり子供に愚痴ったりしている。酒や宗教に走ったりもするが夫が激しく嫌がり断念する。不安定な育児。私に対しては小学生時・夜中でも電話で結婚生活・夫・育児のの愚痴を泣きながら言う。私は大変にこころを痛めた。さとした。私が１６歳時父親の借金返済のめどがたたなくなり失踪。
以前より佐世保烏帽子岳にて縊首の計画を立て生命保険にて何とかしようと思うと相談を受けていた。私が夏休み母親宅にあそびに行っている間に祖母のすすめで失踪。

私には詳細は知らされず。父の生死の確認が出来ず、精神不安定。食行動の異常や感情コントロールが出来ず精神科受診。
横浜市大精神科では「境界性人格障害」「摂食障害」「鬱」など。退院後精神疾患をかかえたまま、家族の無理解のため身を寄せるところがなく、横浜にて風俗店勤務。寮生活。病状悪化。就労不可。

客に市役所職員がおり生活保護につないでくれる。保護受給・精神科通院するなかで交際相手にそれと知らず不倫関係。妊娠・中絶・精神科入院。病状はなかなかよくならず、２０代は重い鬱生活を過ごした。２８歳時別の男性と同居・薬物依存症になっていた（コデイン・市販の風邪薬。「ブロン」を１日１００錠ほどと、精神科の処方薬や眠剤）。

売春相手の男性と交際をはじめる。彼は少年院～矯正施設で暮らしてきた成人で、出所後は建築現場で懸命に働いていたが、全身に刺青があり、精神科通院をしていた。被虐待児でありたいへんに不安定な人物であった。同棲がはじまりDVへ発展し夜中に静的・身体的暴行をおこなう。軟禁状態となる。（横浜南区・坂東橋）役所やシェルターへ相談へ行くも、一筋縄ではいかないことを察する。元の交際相手の男性の相談し夜逃げ。

東京品川区大井へ引っ越す。わたしは精神疾患（鬱）の治療をおこないながら生活再建のため渋谷風俗店勤務。違法風俗店であり、ほぼ全員が本番行為を強要。暗闇で「夜這い」というコンセプトの店であった。（先日、管轄内の警察署に電話相談。生活相談課・刑事課など人や対応・法の領域をまたぎ難航。結局「立件出来ない」「昔のこと（１０年以上前）・時効の可能性」。男性刑事や女性警察官とともにぞんざいな対応。仕方がないと一旦身を引く。（会話録音済）。私はその店にて夫と知り合い結婚。

子１人もうける。自閉症の診断。療育園に母子通所。私は精神科通院・投薬治療を受けながら孤独な育児。私自身の診断名は「知的・発達障害・鬱」。最近、自身で服薬を一切止めた。最初はフラッシュバックが酷かったが、次第に慣れ、脳がクリアになり、元気になる感覚。

インターネットにて歴史や精神疾患について学ぶ。社会問題の構造・教育や特別支援教育・障害について・正しい歴史の知識など、疑問を感じ始める。どんどん脳は回復しており、眠剤も一切、一切の服薬を止めた。純粋数学に出会い、本を読み世界を学んでいる。私の経験から、社会問題と関連し問題提起できる点にメスを入れ、一緒に「解」を導いていきたい。

「解と証明」をひたすらにおこなう。私が述べた情報のなかで何をどこの機関へ提示すればよいか。最適解を導きたい。

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Sudki Mansour Sudkiと「盧」のこども！

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ありがとうございます！！

I am a descendant of a family taken from Korea to Japan. War and atomic bombing in Nagasaki. I myself have almost no compulsory education due to mental instability.
I stopped taking psychiatric medication about a month ago, my brain has recovered and I write using a computer. I have also been diagnosed with ‘autism’ by a Japanese medical institution.

I will now tell you my life experiences strictly according to the facts. Please then scrutinise the information and give me your solution/advice on which information to submit to which authorities in this country.　My grandparents, who were Korean immigrants, met and married my parents in Tokyo, where I and my siblings were born. My mother (with Korean immigrant roots) and her grandparents moved to Japan due to the trauma of the harsh history in Korea. The Japanese state authorities took away my Korean surname, Roh, and ordered me to take the surname Kurosaki. When he moved to Nagasaki, he experienced war and the atomic bombing (he spent time in Sasebo, Nagasaki and experienced the war. Described as a constant fireball from the sky. Running for his life. Discrimination and prejudice from the Japanese in everyday life that plays out from there. During and after the war, Koreans were herded into a gymnasium by the Japanese and tortured (according to my grandmother). My grandmother passed on various facts to me orally, but I felt a little confused because she told me not to tell anyone, or I would be bullied (discriminated and prejudiced). My grandmother tried her best to teach me about Korean food and language, but I also experienced some discrimination at school, so I began to distance myself from this topic. (My grandmother used garlic in all her daily dishes, including kimchi, which caused bad breath. This was pointed out to me by my classmates (‘It stinks, it stinks!!!’ ' and everyone made a fuss about it). I began to feel annoyed and ashamed of my surroundings. My grandmother's daughter (my mother) is naturalised but of pure Korean origin. (Both parents are Korean). Makes me think that I am biologically sensitive and sensitive by nature. Sensory sensitivity. Intuition (sixth sense?). Strength of. Differences in sensory input. Grandfather (mother's father) was subjected to chastisement after his mother's disappearance in his family home in Korea (Daegu) and his stepmother's arrival. After the birth of a child between his stepmother and his biological father, the chastisement became more severe and he was hung from a persimmon tree with a string. Realising that she would be killed if she stayed here, she ran away when she was 13 years old. Moved to Japan. Spends time doing makeshift manual labour. At a kitchen in Kyushu, his grandmother's father (his great-grandfather) arranged an arranged marriage for him and his grandmother. Mother born (and two other half-siblings). Grandfather becomes an alcoholic and violent during the course of his life. While living in Sasebo (in an owner-occupied house), my grandmother and mother are severely beaten day and night. When she slept in the kennel or in her room, she would fight back by carrying a kitchen knife under her duvet. As they grew up, they got into fights. My grandfather cries all the time because he cannot stop drinking alcohol and has cirrhosis of the liver. He is repeatedly in and out of internal medicine and psychiatric hospitals. He spends his days in the basement crying and drinking. Mother reaches puberty and develops a highly unstable personality. When she was 16-17 years old, she had a pity car accident with a boyfriend and was injured. Her face was covered with scars and she underwent a series of plastic and cosmetic operations to restore her face to its original shape. Suffered severe whiplash and headaches. Moved to Tokyo after a long journey to and from hospitals for plastic surgery. Worked as a hostess in Ginza. Married her father, who was the manager of the same restaurant. Had three children - myself and two brothers. Returns home to Sasebo, Nagasaki (family home), where my grandmother helps me raise my children. Mental instability and postpartum depression. Always mentally unstable. Unable to control emotions, hits, kicks and yells at children. Repeated regrets and crying. Grandmother babysits the children, while the children take care of themselves. Father has no time to look after the family because of his work in the restaurant he opened with mother. Mother repeatedly has affairs with several members of the opposite sex due to her insecurity. (One of them is the mother's current husband). Father struggles with running the restaurant (izakaya), mother's affairs and finances and raising three children, and becomes abusive towards them. Mother leaves home and remarries her present husband, with whom she has two children. Her remarried partner is an employee of the Maritime Self-Defence Force and has moved around a lot, moving more than 25 times. Government housing - bought and sold three owner-occupied houses, etc. Mother was diagnosed with ‘manic-depressive illness’ at the time at the university hospital psychiatry department (Yokohama City University). Fights with her doctor and refuses to take medication. Treatment was discontinued. Perhaps there is a developmental element to the base. (Maybe due to PTSD?). Unstable parenting, unable to maintain a stable nurturing attitude towards her two children. He cannot sit still anyway and cries, yells and complains to his children. She even turns to alcohol and religion, but her husband hates it so much that he gives up. Unstable parenting. She cries and complains about her marriage, husband and childcare to me on the phone during primary school and even in the middle of the night. I was very hurt. Satoshi. When I was 16, my father disappeared because he could no longer repay his debts. He had been consulting with me for some time about a plan to hang himself on Mount Eboshidake in Sasebo and to do something about it with his life insurance. Disappeared on the advice of his grandmother while I was on summer holiday at his mother's house. I was not informed of the details. Unable to confirm whether my father was alive or dead and mentally unstable. I could not confirm whether my father was alive or dead and was mentally unstable. At the Yokohama City University psychiatry department, she was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, eating disorder and depression. After being discharged from hospital, she worked in a brothel in Yokohama as she had no place to stay due to her family's lack of understanding of her mental illness. Lived in a dormitory. Deterioration of illness. Unable to work. One of her customers is a city hall employee, who connects her to welfare. While receiving public assistance and visiting a psychiatrist, she had an affair with her boyfriend without knowing it. Pregnancy, abortion, psychiatric hospitalisation. At the age of 28, she lived with another man and became addicted to drugs (codeine, over-the-counter cold medicine. About 100 tablets of ‘Bron’ a day, plus psychiatric prescription drugs and sleeping pills). Began dating a man who was a prostitute. He was an adult who had lived in a juvenile reformatory - correctional institution and had worked hard on construction sites since his release, but had tattoos all over his body and was a psychiatric outpatient. He was an abused child and a very unstable person. She started living with him, which developed into domestic violence, with static and physical assaults in the middle of the night. She was placed under house arrest. (Bando Bridge, Minami Ward, Yokohama) She went to the local government office and a shelter for advice, but found it was not a simple matter. She consulted her ex-boyfriend and fled at night. Moved to Oi, Shinagawa Ward, Tokyo. I worked at a brothel in Shibuya to rebuild my life while undergoing treatment for mental illness (depression). It is an illegal brothel and almost all the girls are forced to perform sex acts. The concept of the shop was ‘night crawling’ in the dark. (The other day, she phoned the police station in her area of jurisdiction for advice. (A recent phone call to the police station in the jurisdiction was difficult, as it crossed the boundaries of people, responses and the law, including the life counselling section and the criminal section. In the end, ‘we can't make a case’, ‘it was a long time ago (more than 10 years ago), possible statute of limitations’. Together with male detectives and female police officers, they responded in a shabby manner. I had no choice but to step aside for a while. (Recorded conversation). I met and married my husband there. We have one child. Diagnosis of autism. Mother and child attend a rehabilitation centre. I was a solitary childcare provider while attending a psychiatrist and receiving medication. My own diagnosis is ‘intellectual and developmental disability and depression’. I recently stopped taking any medication myself. At first the flashbacks were severe, but I gradually got used to them and my brain became clearer and I felt more energetic. Learnt about history and mental illness on the internet. Started to question the structure of social problems, education and special needs education, disability, correct knowledge of history, etc. His brain is recovering more and more, and he stops taking any and all sleeping pills. I discovered pure mathematics and am reading books and learning about the world. I would like to use my experience to find a ‘solution’ together with him by focusing on the points that are relevant to social issues and can raise problems. We will work on ‘solutions and proofs’. What should I present in the information I have given, and where should I present it? I want to find the best solution.