Sentimental Journey

My stupidity reached the world level.
I don't know what to do.
I better not thinking too much.
OK, I'll make it a good meditation. Yes.

The 3rd day after Niko left here.
Speedy knows my feelings. because we have the same heart.
Speedy and I spent time together at midnight or early morning every day.
but Speedy is stronger than me,
from at the 4th day after Niko left here,
Speedy Gonzales slept another place.
and He came back here sometimes.

When Neo and Prince Andrew leave here, I gave them letters.
Niko saw it and made fun of me. "It must read on a bus!!"
Of course, I wrote to Niko, and I passed the letter on our last moment, I said, "Please read it on a bus." I laughed a little.

@the day saying goodbye to Niko

Niko offered the chair next to him for me as usual.
Niko tied a green string on Speedy's neck. It's for not following Niko.
opposite our thought, Speedy already knows everything .and had been quiet.
Niko said to me, "Next time we see, He will be stronger".
I needed to put on a green-colored collar too.
I thought so for a moment.
When the farewell speech of Niko, people were full.
Niko said goodbye or shake hands with each person, in turn, one by one.    My turn was last.
I've been waiting for Niko's hug that is the last one and also the first one for me. After all, I couldn't get his hug but
Niko gave me some words and gave me kisses at my both cheeks.

After Niko left here, I dazed for a few hours while smoking a lot in my secret smoking place alone.
What did Niko give me the words at the last moment?
I looked at the road that we walked with laughing together.
I was dazed. I was unable to see around.
and I remembered the precious days.
Even though I smoke tobacco, Niko doesn't come anymore.

I was immersed in a sense of loss that much.
but I turned my mind.
I stand up and go to everybody.
I report to the boss, "I can be in shanti for more than 3 days,
'cause Niko gave me Kisses. so I'm OK now. "