Rei, courage.

Seriously look at the people around you, the genuine ones who love you are there to support you always so never feel alone. 

All the love and support you experience happens for a reason and receive it to build things you need at that precise moment to take you where you want to go at the end of the road, all at the right time.

Sometimes you make this journey with less support and feel you cannot make it alone. But God is there, always by your side because He knows you'll manage the burdens you go through. He won't give you a burden heavier than you can carry. 

At the end of the journey, you will always get to where you wanted, either becoming what you wanted to become or someone else you never expected to become, sometimes beyond expectations. The harder it is, the more grateful you will feel once you get there.

So, again, with the love of people who care for you and God by your side, go through with your journey anyway! 

The hardships you are experiencing right now is taking you where God wants you to be. 

So have faith in Him, always, pray and you'll always be fine! 

After going through all this, you will become what you want to become or even more than you have ever been expected to become.

Even though it doesn't seem not working for what you want, all those situations are blessings in disguise.
You are safe.

You are always one step closer.