Diary in English

I am on the way to come home from my boy friend’s home. I can’t imagine my atitude be alone at home.

My mother said that she can’t never live with any person, my friend said her friend said the same as my mother and she express that is toughness. But I think it is just selfish, never toughness, the kindness come from toughness, true toughness can respect other people.

When her friend’s kids visit her home, she said that “patience”, not joy. I guess she is very lonley, so she will imagine her sad ;very lonely; feeling when the kids leaving. Just blaff.
How do you think?

今日は最初から英語で書いていってみたけど
合ってるのかな。
でもまあ通じる？