Diary in English 2024/9/17

I am not a social person, but sometimes I could be talkative lady.
But such time had not came for a long time. I talked friendly with a man where I sit next to, in a good(?) old days. I can't believe that!
Nowadays, I become tired to talking somebody. I know I am a stubborn, but it doesn't start recently, it start when I was born.
Let me think. I wonder that I am just tired too much.
Tired of what? Maybe for live.

I was only 16 years old when I delivered my first baby.
Since then, I divorced and remarried, moved and moved.
I raised up my kids very nice boys all by myself, no, everyone helped me.
Thanks to the world, indeed.
For these years, I'd been felt like standing on a thin blade, as if moving even a millimeter would slice me in half.

Now that I've finished the walking that blade, I want to take some time to relax an get away from people who make me worry about my old age future.