Diary in English

Today again, old people are trying to do things in a way that ignores accounting rules.
Is it the shrinking of the frontal lobe that makes them so afraid of change that they have no hesitation in breaking the law?
Or is the fear of change a result of activity in the amygdala?

I was eager to be in another place where I can be fancy lady when I was young.
Now I realized the "somewhere" is here, under my feet. I don't mean I'm a fancy lady whom you like, but I am.
Thing that I wrote at the beginning are what keep me from thinking about this stupid thing.