Diary in English 2024/10/6

My son's girlfriend Tama and I went to Sweets Paradise where she wanted to go. 
https://www.sweets-paradise.jp/ 
So, I took her to where my son raised up. 
We walked and walked, told and told. 

I'm worried about my son's lack of  something in his heart. 
He can't face that something with verbalize, because he is not so smart.
He seems to be  pretending to be good, though he is already nice.

He should try to talk to me, I will pick his words and assemble, like I used to. 

He has gained a lot of weight.
This shows that his mentally problem. 
I think he is not living the life he wants.
But it can't be helped, because he doesn't try very hard.
I think I don't seem to make much effort to him.
I certainly don't do thing I don't like, that's because I set my mind to enjoy. 
There are many many things I can't do, but I think I am a reliable mother in his eyes. I didn't mean to hide the fact that I am always suffering and ashamed of the things I can't do, but I wonder how I looked in his eyes.

Anyway, it's okay for him to be normal.
Living a normal life is very  precious.
As someone  who has suffered from not being able to be normal.

I want him to realize his own wonderfulness without comparing himself to others.
And I want him to look straight ahead again, 

Anyway, it's okay for him to be normal.
Living a normal life is very precious.

I want him to realize his own wonderfulness without comparing himself to others.
And I want him to calm down and look straight ahead.