Diary in English 2024/9/22

I’ve finished reading the book “Sinner” that I read these days. Definitely it broke my heart, at the same time it saved me also.

I wrote this last week,

For these years, I'd been felt like standing on a thin blade, as if moving even a millimeter would slice me in half.

Now that I've finished the walking that blade, I want to take some time to relax an get away from people who make me worry about my old age future.

If I was cut, I would have fallen into the world of the book. It would quite right for me.
I think my kids didn’t aware the edge I stand. I hope so. But I wonder they already knew that, because I had nightmares every night. I would moan and cry, calling out my children’s name, they said next morning.

I cried when I finisged reading it. I even cried at the dialogue between Takehiko Kasuga M.D. and author Amy Yamada at the end of the book.

Every layer unseen of this world.
It’s not easy to break the between the layer and the others. There are very few people who can move freely between leyers. Don’t hope that you’ll be one of them, if you do, you’ll only desappointed and make things worse.