2022/08/11 English

BGM: XTC "English Roundabout"

This morning I had a conversation with a friend in the Kyushu area on WhatsApp. I talked to him about the departure of a person who had cared for me at the 'danshu' meeting, and also the shocking emotion of the news of Shinmon Aoki and Hisao Nakai, both of whom had passed away recently. Of course, we have the destiny of dying someday. A Japanese writer Masuji Ibuse said, "Life is just the departures". But, even if I know about that, I exactly feel that is bitter. All I can do is just take the things those ancients left on my own, and deliver them to the late generation. I want to think about something by myself with Nakai's books.

As I always write, to tell the truth, I wanted to become a pro writer. Therefore I read various books and wrote a lot of novels and essays. Those works are for me just practices. Even if I couldn't become it, I think I could go forward a little. It must be important how I accept my life and also walk forward on the path of life. From other people, I am just an old amateur. But I have proud of walking forward. That might be OK. The books I had read, or the works I had done are still alive in me.

I heard the news that we had found two infected members at our workplace. So I had to do overtime work. These Infected people are still increasing. I had heard that the fourth vaccination will be done, and corona's panic still goes on. This is also what I always write, but when corona had just started, I had tried to be cool with the opinions I heard that "Corona is not dangerous as Influenza ". But foreign friends had talked about its danger and I changed my mind. The skill of my English saved me.

I am wondering if I can write about English in essays. I am thinking about the relationship between Japanese, my mother tongue, and English. I would write something even if I can't be a pro. When the library will open, I want to borrow Sam Shepard's "Motel Chronicles" or Jay McInerney’s "Bright Lights, Big City". Or it would be nice if I read Haruki Murakami's books once I had read them passionately. My reading time is still rich, but I want to watch movies again.