人生は冒険

最近は、ハッピーなことから心が痛くなる体験をこの短期間で学ぶことができました。ちょっと日本語で表現が難しいので英語で
People come and go, and I knew that when I started this relationship. I told myself I was prepared for whatever might happen, but now, as things end, I realize it’s much harder than I expected. It’s one thing to know that people change and paths diverge; it’s another thing entirely to feel it. Even so, I’m someone who can’t walk away without finding my own peace first. I don’t give up without clarity—especially when it involves someone I cared so much about. Avoidance doesn’t work for me anymore; facing things feels like the right choice, even if it’s painful.

This past few days, I put in so much effort to rebuild our relationship. I wanted to be patient and give us both the best chance. Even though he was shutting down, pushing away his emotions, and not fully facing what was happening between us, I kept trying. I believed that if I showed up with patience and effort, maybe things would change for the better. But I’ve come to realize that sometimes, no amount of patience or effort can make someone else ready to face things the way you are.

One thing that hurt most was watching him change himself based on who he was around. He’s naturally introverted, but he was trying to fit in with people who had such different vibes. Being in a new environment, with different friend groups, changed him in some positive ways but also in ways that pulled him away from the things I thought mattered to him. Of course, it’s his life and his choice; I can’t dictate how he lives. But seeing him take a path I felt was misguided—it really hurt, because I care about him.

As we said our final goodbye, I reminded him to think before he acts, especially in relationships and personal matters. I wanted him to remember that he’s responsible for the outcomes of his actions. People and cultures can influence him, but I hope he holds onto his own values. I can’t change his mindset, and I’ve accepted that. I just hope he remembers what I said.

Looking back, this relationship has taught me a lot about patience, effort, and letting go. I wanted to be a positive influence in his life, to help him grow in the right direction. But I know now that some things are beyond my control, and the most respectful thing I can do for both of us is to let go.

I’ve come to accept that not every story ends happily, and that’s okay. Each person I meet brings something meaningful into my life, whether they stay or go. Even those who have hurt me leave behind lessons that shape who I am. I don’t hold onto regret or anger anymore; I try to see everything as part of my growth. Life is a series of lessons, and every experience—good or bad—pushes me forward, guiding me to the next step on my path. Accepting it all lets me keep moving, with a little more wisdom each time.

Thank you next... アリアナさんリスペクト