november favs 2024🍂
11.10.2024. & 11.11.2024
hi again. as ive mentioned before im a 0 or 100 person so here i am writing my 4th blog entry of the day. is it just me or are my japanese blogs so boring?? idk if im being delusional but even when im speaking in japanese i feel like what im talking about is so boring or is that just me liking the english language more in general. everything is so confusing.
anyways i just wanted to write about my favorite things as of november 10th (11th) 2024 because why not. i need a place to organize what i like because my emotions are confusing me more than ever. being a human is hard.
ok so 1st. TATE MCRAE.
ive been obsessed with her ever since she came to (insert city). my fyp on tiktok is filled with tate. her dancing is beyond amazing and i still can't get over the its ok im ok choreography. the part where she brushes her hands while saying "you can have him anyway" *chefs kiss*
no pop girl is doing it like her. and its crazy to think about how much energy and stamina she has because she does the same choreography as her fucking dancers and just effortlessly goes back to singing. she's also a trained dancer so im sure she has a very strong work ethic/is hard on herself and is not leading a lazy life like me which also makes me love her even more. idk what is is about her songs but they are mildly addicting. idk something about them makes me want to listen to them on repeat. you broke me first reduces my anxiety for some reason and messier is also so so good.
and im starting to like the kid laroi as well. his music is great. aperol spritz is apparently about tate so cute :')) that song is also on repeat.
can't spell tate without ate. real.
no 2. i dont wanna be like this kimberly its terrifying…
more like my life fav but i recently rewatched the first episode and it reminded me of this gem. wow. so much has changed since i watched this for the first time. when i first watched this, no one in the world knew i was queer.
i just love reflecting on my journey to embracing my queerness (still on the journey :**) so much that ill end up talking about it in every blog lol.
but yea, no one knew. but now a decent number of people do. and ive come comfortable to the point that i sometimes naturally tell people that i like girls as well. although im pressed with new problems, im so grateful that i can live in a world where i can be gay so freely.
like leighton, i was so scared to tell people. if someone asked me my type, i would always answer something about a guy. now i just say "someone". then some people actually infer that i am in fact not straight, which is so great.
ill probably make a whole blog entry about this again lmao.
ok but this is the cutest coming out scene that i think almost all of the reneé rapp fandom has memorized. baby reneé is so cute.
"i dont wanna be like this kimberly its terrifying. i dont want my whole life to change"
i just wanna tell you reneé, that you changed my life. and probably so many queer girls lives. brb gonna go watch this scene again.
no 3. anything goes with emma chamberlain
idk what it is but something about emmas voice or just the content in general soothes me so much. and it makes me productive. when i dont want to clean my room i always play this podcast and usually end up deep cleaning my whole bathroom.
recently i wasn't in the mood for doing absolutely anything. i usually like people's company but this week i couldn't wait for the weekend to come and be absolutely alone. i did have to meet people on saturday morning, but other than that i spent my time sleeping, (trying to) read, shopping etc. i set sunday as a reading day but i fell asleep 20 minutes into my new book. great. not productive at all. but i wanted to do absolutely nothing so a decent weekend i guess. i still need more time to recharge so it can't wrap my head around the fact that it already became monday as i was writing this blog entry. i think emma makes me feel like its ok to have shitty days and that its part of being human. im in my i-dont-want-to-talk-to-anyone era even though one day of not talking to anyone kind of makes me go crazy.
i just need a little break from life. i dont know what i want, i feel like im not enjoying anything, and i dont know how to feel. i think i forgot how to be happy. *insert what was i made for by billie eilish*
i think i need to find a goal in life and work towards it.
dont go easy on yourself. this week, work hard like its the last week to do job hunting.