Single Mothers

My grandmother was a single mother. My mother did not want to become a single mother. Although she was financially independent, she chose not to leave my dad, sacrificing her professional success. In other words, she couldn't escape from my dad.

I am the product of such a mother.

I fled, crossing the seas multiple times, and am now trying to escape completely. My sister also became a single mother. She also could have become independent with her insurance money, but she couldn't leave our parents and remains a bird in a cage.

My sister told me she is telling our parents that she will take care of me, but that would mean my death. If I return to Japan, I won't be able to escape from my family, and I will be killed. Since I couldn't access social welfare no matter how hard I tried, going back to Japan means facing death itself.

Multiple single mothers are trying to help me. So, I started learning about single mothers. I am staying at a single mother friend's house for now. I still think I can't fully support myself and might end up like my dad.

I refuse to give up my independence and have decided to live as a single unit. The decision to live as a single unit was made long ago and remains unchanged.

I am polyamorous, so I have multiple partners, but legally, I will live as a single person regardless of any law.

I have no regrets about choosing not to have children. Although I thought I lacked the affection to care for animals, it doesn't seem to be the case. In fact, I am quite affectionate. I'm not good with words and quite "tsundere," but it doesn't work for animals.

For me, being honest, not hiding anything, being straightforward, and staying true to myself is justice.

Probably, the concept of justice in Japan is different from that. As with any term, imported, used, it changes.