“He/Him Pronouns”

“He/Him Pronouns”

Honestly speaking, I have a desire to use he/him pronouns.

So sometimes I say my pronouns are he/him.

It depends on the person,  
the people,  
or the place.

Because I need to feel safe.

Using he/him pronouns could lead to experiencing hate  
or non-smooth interactions.

Conversations that are not smooth mean there are issues,  
from the viewpoint of conversation analysis.

I want to avoid that because I feel awkward.

I understand it's because my voice pitch is high,  
which is too much for me,  
even though I've been using testosterone for almost a year.

It’s too harmful for me,  
and I always want to cry.

Because I started to use testosterone in my later years.

Also, I don’t like my classic trans tendencies.

I am quite feminist,  
men are kind of my enemy,  
and have harmed me too much in my life.

I know it’s easier for people to use my preferred pronouns,  
but still not for me by myself.