Crying and afraid

Today I'm crying and afraid. It's been 3.5years since I came to this country. I am now 23years old and I haven't made a girlfriend yet. I am wondering, is it really possible for me to date here? My language is very basic, I'm pretty sure a junior high school student is better than I am. I don't want to bore a girl on a date when I am unable to communicate with her ... But I really want to go out and spend time with.

Am I destined to live a long life alone? D *** life and it's blessings. How do I change these tides?

 On the other hand, I am also worried about life after graduation. Will I be able to find a job here. Is it a good idea to find a job in a country that got me crying like this for these past nearly 4 years? 😩

With a deep introspection, I think it's a logical decision to make for me to leave to a country I can fit in more "naturally and smoothly".

Its perhaps the sad truth but it is what it is, I can't be as happiest I can here because I'm extremely limited. I'm sorry conscience, I'm sorry reader, I'm sorry my country, I know you probably wanted me here longer.

So what's the next step from now? ...