On the last day of my gap year

 It's been million years since I last posted a blog here. It's me Fumio again. I lost so many viewers or followers in these past months but yeah, I hope someone will read this.

 Okay, my uni life starts tomorrow. Can you believe that childish problematic Fumio is finally becoming a uni student? I cannot. It's crazy but this also means today (I'm writing this on 25/01) is the last day of my gap year which lasted for one year and a half.

 Yes, I've changed a lot. Like A LOT. I move to Denmark, went to hojskole there, met my lifelong friends and teachers who are my danish parents, and got so many experiences and memories.

 Yet, living in a different country with all the new people was not easy at first. Especially, my mental health. I struggled a lot with eating new food because of my eating disorder. I still remember I cried every day before and after every meal. Soon after I made friends, I was relieved. I sometimes still struggle though.

Don't get me wrong, I also (I mean most of my experiences at hojskole were awesome.) had great times.

 Fell asleep while Dorethe's yoga class and got laughed at a lot by others, met my best friend Marcus while Julie was seeing if I can build a great relationship with my boyfriend who soon became ex with tarot haha (omg I'm still looking for a new bf someone!!), kissed Henriette while her father was there since we were totally wasted, and ran around school with Alba screaming. Like everything was perfect. Oh, wait, Annika (my contact teacher) was really serious about adopting me. She couldn't but there was a possibility of me becoming Danish lol. Hojskole was such an amazing school where I could find myself.

 I still remember when one of the teachers told me there's always a time that you have to say goodbye to the place you are at. This really hit me since I was running away from reality by staying there. I was running away from the fact I have to go to a university and go back to Japan once but because of her words, now I'm in Japan writing this. Tusind tak Mette.

 I still don't know if the decision of coming back to Japan was right or not. It would be a lie if I say I'm having a great life here. My family is still abusive but Im trying to find a way to build a good relationship with them before I'm leaving japan again after this June since they are still my family and created me. I hope everything will be okay:))

 Wait am I leaving again??
Yes, I'll move to Europe again this summer. I came to the conclusion that Europe would be more suitable for me and easier to live in as Fumio than Japan.

Gosh, it's almost 12 am. I should end this blog and go to bed.

Last but not least, thank you so much for reading such a long blog and being you<33

January 25th, 2023, the last day of the gap year
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