21.09.24 | Tonight's feelings

As I looked through my PlayStation library, I realized how many games I've never even touched. Some have been sitting there since 2016, and it took me back to a time when I was just trying to distract myself from everything. The memories hit me hard—nostalgia mixed with a strange, deep emotion.

I didn't finish some games, not because I didn’t want to, but because my mental health was in such a dark place. I missed out on so much. But now, as I'm slowly healing, I’m searching for something that brings me that old joy again. I miss that rush, the excitement of diving into a great story and feeling all those raw emotions come to life through a game.🌸

To be completely honest, I long to share my joy with someone special, someone who shares that deep passion for these kinds of games. Someone who feels emotions deeply, who’s empathetic, and carries this safe, comforting energy. Someone who wants to spend time with me not just because they have to, but because they truly enjoy being in my presence. It's a desire that runs so deep within me, it makes me tear up sometimes. 

Haha I feel like such a crybaby sometimes. I know that some people might be tired of me and my desire to beloved by someone, but I can't help myself. No one should be alone in this world. I will definitely be patient and not rush anything. A true connection takes time. ✨🖤

I should probably spend less time on the big social media sites like Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. I tend to compare myself to others and that's not healthy.  =͟͟͞͞(꒪ᗜ꒪‧̣̥̇)

Thank you for reading~