3rd Week of 2024 (January)

Hello. I had an extraordinary good time at the end of last year spending with her in Madrid, Morocco and Germany. It was so perfect that now I even wanna forget the fact that all the good things happened during that time.

And now I'm alone, thinking about my future and suffering. What tf is this gap. Whatever she does it's her responsibility. it's her task. I can't control it. She is coming back someday when she has time and in the mood. I will just keep killing time until then. Focus on yourself. Build up your career that is something you really really have to prioritise more than the rest of things in your life right now. No job no future. Today you take some good rest.

I wake up early, work, and go to library to prepare for a future job, which is well done for me considering my past laziness since I moved to Madrid. I'm totally into Madrid. I wanted to live here for good. Yes it's a past form. Now I'm rather thinking about Budapest, thinking about friends, thinking about her especially. I guess this is the only and once in life opportunity to get close to her mentally and physically to take some time to talk about so many things varying from big to small things, from important to dull, unnecessary shitty things, which I believe we have to enjoy. I just wanna prove if we really can enjoy it or not. I just wanna know. 

Move onto the next phase of the life. Be aware of the fact that this is one of the super important moments in your life. Choose your path, choose your move, choose your career, choose your people, choose your city. Easy thing. 

So tomorrow you will see yourself super refreshed! Work for a couple of hours spending good time with your student, write a cover letter, and apply for 10 companies, learn python.

Sounds good? Good night