Breaking out of solitude.

Hello, this is clarky luna.

I'm sorry I haven't written immediately after the last time. I got myself busy with some creative stuff, which were quite helpful in "detoxifying" myself with negative emotions, so to speak. So essentially, I took a break.

About that, you see, I'm a pessimist. No, not that; it's more of I think realistically. I tend to plan, organize, assume for the worst, thus I tend to prepare failsafes. So I deal with negative emotions quite frequently and they get bottled up over time. So there's that.

You don't need to worry about me, I'm good.

You know that feeling that you're so down thinking about the things you lack you forget about the things that you actually have? That's what I've been putting in effort to unlearn lately. For a long time, I'd envy other people on the internet and in real life of their achievements, possessions, and company and the most frustrating part for me was there was no one to reassure me that I was doing fine. It took a long time of reflection and reevaluation to assure myself that I have more positive things to look at. Hell, I'm still on that process up to this day.

Maybe it's the midlife crisis. Maybe it's my loner self. Maybe it's my trust issues. Maybe it's all of them and more that I just haven't identified yet. Life is a challenge. It's boring, it's troublesome, it's exciting, it's whatever you make it out to be. It's an endless cycle of planning, executing, and evaluating.

I'm just glad I have company these days. Never mind casual, but people I can chat with at any capacity - I'm grateful for them for making me feel that I'm not isolated.

I've been doing planks as of late, kind of an exercise routine. Also, I'm trying to go back to wotagei dance, albeit gradually. I still can't film a long video so I'm sticking to short-form ones. I'm approaching old man territory in a few weeks so I have to be extra careful now. I'm afraid I might not be the "most durable 打ち師 (one who practices wotagei dance) in the Philippines" anymore lol

We shouldn't really take our health for granted. Physical, mental, emotional, financial - health is an extremely important concept for mankind. I don't know, maybe it's something that you learn and appreciate more when you get older. Those things I do in my teens and my early 20's, I find them challenging to do now. So whenever you can, do a lot of stuff when you're still young. Whether it will benefit or harm you will be up to your discretion. Nevertheless, it will be a learning experience.

I think I'm blabbering now. Last time, I think I said I'll tell you a good story. Maybe I'll do it next time. 

Thank you for reading. Let's meet again sometime.

(Did you know that I wrote and co-produced the first local アイドル SE in the Philippines?)