July 22: My Wife, Interfering, My Gait （ボクの妻、お節介、歩き方）

Some days ago, I ran across her at the railway station near my home, and we came home together. As soon as we arrived home, she began to tell me that my stride was shorter than before. Further, she described that a few days ago, she saw a woman walking with poles but with a longer stride than me. I knew she was so concerned about my hip joint that she wanted to say something out of her kindness. But I shouted in my mind, ‘It is none of your business. Never talk about my gait. I know it without being told!’ I have struggled to explore how to improve my gait all day or night. I want to find, assess and do anything good for my gait without help from others.
I know I must never tell her what I shouted in my mind since it would cause me to have a big fight with her. About my gait, I want her to watch what I do without interfering. The more she talks about my gait, the more I am demotivated.

　先日も、最寄り駅で偶然会って、一緒に家に帰ることがありました。その時、「歩幅が以前より狭くなった」とか「杖をついて歩いているおばあさんに会ったけど、ボクより大きな歩幅で歩いていた」などを言われました。本人は、ボクの足を心配して言ってくれているのだと思いますが、ボクは「余計なお世話です。歩き方の話は止めてくれ。そんなことは言われなくても分かっている」と心の中で叫んでいます。もっと上手に歩けるようなるにはどうすればいいのかにと昼夜を問わず、格闘しています。
　人に頼らず、歩き方改善に良さそうなことを自分で探し、検討して実行したいのです。これを言うと、大げんかになりそうなので我慢しています。ボクの歩き方については、どうか静かに見守って欲しいものです。言われれば言われるほど、ボクのやる気が失せます。