My Journey with English and Personal Growth

I decided to go to university, but I quickly found that it wasn't as enjoyable as I had hoped. There’s a person there who constantly makes fun of others, arbitrarily categorizing people and looking down on them based on university rankings. I don't care about his actions, but the long commute from home to school added to my frustration, so I decided to consider studying abroad instead.

Struggles with Motivation

Initially, I began studying for the IELTS, but I didn’t continue because my motivation was low at the time. Later, I tried watching Japanese anime dubbed in English, which I found fun and suited my style of learning. However, even this approach didn’t work out as well as I hoped. My father became upset with me for staying home all day and watching anime, which led to another attempt at studying English. Unfortunately, I couldn’t maintain my motivation.

During this period, I often thought of myself as a bad person, someone without value. Then, I discovered a YouTuber who introduces philosophy in a simple way, and learning about the thoughts of famous philosophers helped me relax. I also decided to study programming, but as you might guess, that didn’t last either. Depression affected everything I tried to do.

Finding What Works for Me

Even when I began to feel better, my parents’ disapproval—like my father clicking his tongue in anger—would bring me down again. I often found myself making excuses for why my life wasn’t working out. I realized, though, that if my parents hadn’t criticized my English-learning methods, I could have at least continued engaging with the language.

Now, I choose to ignore my parents’ opinions and return to watching anime in English to study. This method is truly enjoyable for me and gives me more time with the language than traditional study methods like preparing for tests. I encourage you to find your own style of learning and stick to it, regardless of what your parents say. After all, there’s a generation gap that affects how they see things.

If you ever feel disappointed in your parents, I recommend watching the discussion between 堀江貴文 (Horie Takafumi) and 成田修造 (Narita Shuzo). Watching this video helps me not care about others' opinions.

A New Beginning

Although I’m late in introducing myself, I’ve decided to start writing anime reviews from my perspective in English to interact with people from around the world. Nice to meet you all, and thank you for reading. I guess no one will read this note, so I’m using it as a place to vent my feelings.