N-0001 | English

From September 2001 to September 2024, I had been thinking constantly about “null.”

It felt akin to the act of freeing up memory in the brain.

To continue contemplating something without a clear definition in society teeters on the edge of madness.

It was neither physics nor psychology, but something resembling a “transcendent concept.”

I kept thinking, recording, abstracting, and systematizing it, somehow managing to articulate a “shape-like form” in words.

It was like trying to explain “transparency” in relation to all colors.

It is clear that it is none of the colors, yet describing it linguistically is challenging.

“Null” is the state of being “none of the available options,” a concept that defies affirmative expression.

It was an idea that did not exist in the world.

I spent my days thinking about such a “transparent concept.”

While navigating daily life, I pondered null.

This text is a record of the concepts I’ve explored, the inspirations I’ve gained through those explorations, and some thoughts and emotions that emerged along the way.

It was a never-ending journey.

Many times, I almost gave up.

Yet, I felt I couldn’t die until I completed this puzzle.

And now, the puzzle is complete.

It was a continuous process of dismantling and abstraction.

Removing elements.

Through this process, what remained was something like a generalized “collection of other things.”

I now intend to record my thoughts about that.