初めて留学で病んだ話

What an irritated phrase she said to me directly!!!!!!!

I know I'm not good at English and the level was also not so high when I was in Japan. I know I know but I don't wanna lose my motivation for studying. I just wanted to learn, enjoying it as one of the tools to talk with anyone.

Okay, I got it. It seems like this could be an example of Asian hate. I understand that, but why did she say such a terrible thing in front of the class? I don't get it. Maybe I should just not care about what she said anymore. I feel so irritated! I want to improve my English and show her that her comments were uncalled for! I want to improve my English and have her realize I was too much to say to you!!!!!! 

とまあ私が自分に自信をなくす原因となったこの事件はトラウマに。

こんな時に見たのが、本田圭佑の
”人間いつかは死ぬ。行きたいように生きろ。”だ。

本当にそうで、こんなことで悩んでる時間すら無駄なのだ。
前に進もうただ楽しいことだけを考えて。
ワクワクしながら夢を描いていくことだけが幸せなのかもしれない。
楽しいことが起きるといつも信じていこうと思った。

たくさん涙を流すことこれからもいっぱいある。
でも常に、非効率な思考にならないようにしよう。
悪循環から抜け出すことができるのも、自分を変えるのも、
全部自分にしかできないから。