2023/12/03 - We have hard days.

I can't sleep tonight and I have not good feeling.

My daughter had a ketonemia emesis again.
We had many schedule last week so we were very hard.
It's always happen when we are very hard.
I'm really afraid every time.
I think, is my sweet daughter really ok?
I always have worries about her.

Am I a good mother? No.
Does she have a peace of mind? No.
Does she haven't pressures? No.
I'm really bad mother. Yes.

I always think, I don't want to become a parent like my parents.
But I become a parent like my parents more and more.
I don't want to believe these things.
But this is true.

I want to become a kind mother.